Don't you wish people would have told you what the "real world" was like before you graduated college. It seems like no one tells you what life is really like and then one day you are just in it! Don't get me wrong, it's not bad, just hard, and sometimes harder than I expected. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I lived in a fairytale and just had to wake up someday. Part of me still believes that you can live in a fairytale, your own fairytale. You just have to train yourself to think a certain way. You can see reality, but choose to only focus on the good and not let the bad get to you. This is something I need to work on.
I have no idea why I'm writing this! Lol. I'm SOOOOOOOO bored. Eric is off playing golf and I am unemployed and have no friends. I also have no energy or desire to do anything. Weird, I know. I just want to sit. Maybe it's because I haven't been sleeping well lately. I hope it's that. Every night this week I've had a nightmare (with the exception of last night.) Because I've been having nightmares I haven't wanted to sleep. Even if I'm tired I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want to have another bad dream :( I'm such a little kid! lol.
Man I hope I get a job soon. My problem is that I have so many things I want to do, but I don't do them. Why is that? Why can't I just say "Lisa, get up and do..." It's like whatever it is can't keep my attention, even if I originally wanted to do it, or I feel like there's no use because I'm not as good at the thing as I used to be so it makes me sad. How do I get out of this funk?
I have no idea why I'm writing this! Lol. I'm SOOOOOOOO bored. Eric is off playing golf and I am unemployed and have no friends. I also have no energy or desire to do anything. Weird, I know. I just want to sit. Maybe it's because I haven't been sleeping well lately. I hope it's that. Every night this week I've had a nightmare (with the exception of last night.) Because I've been having nightmares I haven't wanted to sleep. Even if I'm tired I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want to have another bad dream :( I'm such a little kid! lol.
Man I hope I get a job soon. My problem is that I have so many things I want to do, but I don't do them. Why is that? Why can't I just say "Lisa, get up and do..." It's like whatever it is can't keep my attention, even if I originally wanted to do it, or I feel like there's no use because I'm not as good at the thing as I used to be so it makes me sad. How do I get out of this funk?


















































